I love fall. I love everything about it. The smells, the colors, the foods, the football. I also love seeing all the carved pumpkins families make with their kids. Since our first post miscarriage fall, we’ve always gotten white pumpkins. To me they represent our angel babies. They make my heart smile when I see them. Even though we don’t have babies to carve pumpkins with we do still have the remembrance of them during this beautiful change of seasons.

We are on the way to my family reunion and had to leave behind our little guy… He has gotten so used to going with us everywhere we go that as we were packing the car up he realized his things were not being packed up…the saddness started…. Mamma, why is my bag not being packed. Why are you leaving me behind. Why can’t I go with you? You said I could always go, I am so sad, say it isn’t true. I promise I will be good, I won’t chase any bunnies or birds. I wont be a little turd. Please don’t leave me….Oh wait, did Brynn just throw me a ball… bye mom… have fun! Gotta love this little stinker! xx

Such a beautiful start to the day. 12 years ago this morning, the doctors said you were on your way…never for a moment did we think you wouldn’t stay. Thank you for reminders like this, that while you are not here physically, you are still here.

The sunrise was so absolutely stunning this morning. It’s often the little things in life that take on the biggest meaning. It was definitely a beautiful reminder this morning; that while you may not be physically in my arms, it comforts me to believe that you had something to do with this….

I remember this day like it was yesterday. We had already taken multiple positive tests, but we also wanted that doctors confirmation that I truly was pregnant. We waited another week to get in! The excitement, was defiantly a stress filled week. It’s here it’s here! We left that office beaming and started making calls. Planning a Mother’s Day surprise announcement….Little did we know that 11 weeks later, there was no heartbeat, something somewhere needed you more.

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Mother’s Day.

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